When I look At You

"this time, don't need another perfect line. don't care if critics ever jump in line. i'm gonna give all my secrets away."

this post goes to you, my love, my only one.

yesterday i couldn't sleep knowing that you were moody and pissed at something. i don't know if it was me or something else, but all i can say is i'm sorry if i ever did anything wrong that didn't made you happy at all. 

while i was wide awake, i ran trough all the stuff you ever gave me. the letters, pictures, voice recordings, video recording.. well, thats all i have anyways. not forgetting some of the text that i kept for the past nine months.

i read all of them, one at the time. i noticed how you we're so sweet and loving and its like everything i have wished for. not saying that you aren't now. but sometimes, i think back and read these things you gave me. i wonder what happened to most of the things that was written in that piece of paper, that short text. i wonder.

but i'm not asking that where has all those things been, all those words of promises. i'm puzzled myself. but i was thinking and i thought, why do i wanna hope for something to happen when it has already happen towards me. the greatest thing in life has already happened and i don't even know it. it was right in front of my eyes.. it was you.

so even after reading all those letters i still had things running trough my head. do you take concern of me like i do. well, thats not for me to judge. all i have to do is love you, and be the best i can. you know, it never bores me to read the things you've wrote everyday, the short clip that you recorded, the video we took together and the pictures that i have. 

all i wanna say is.. i love you, from the bottom of my heart.. though i not be romantic or sweet.. handsome and  good looking.. i will, i will always love you, and care for you.

when i look at you, i see forgiveness. i see the truth that you love me for who i am like the stars hold the moon right where they belong, and i know i'm not alone. when the waves are flooding the shores, and i cant find my way home anymore. thats when i look at you.

when i think of you i feel peace and serenity. i feel like you are there beside me holding my arms not wanting to let me go. when i feel alone and need someone to accompany me. thats when i think of you.

i love you babe, and i know you love me to.