Merry Christmas and Happy New Year!

Merry Christmas
Everyone..!

Hope you guys had a great Christmas.. i did.. well half of it tho..
i enjoyed the countdown moments.. then half of Christmas was fun..
then after Christmas was sad.. ):

But.. what the heck.. its the season to be jolly.. so.. :D did nothing much.. or did much.. not sure.. heh..

So.. on the eve of Christmas.. i went to Church for Christmas eve mass.. yea.. then went countdown and hanged out in Sunway.. :D
slept like freaking late.. head a massive headache when i woke up..

So.. woke up.. got ready.. it was Christmas.. woohoo! but it didn't feel like it.. o.O
so went to church.. had a Christmas party.. it was fun.. heh..
then went to family friends house for lunch.. *TURKEY WAS AWESOME*
and went out with parents the rest of the day.. :D

Today was supposed to head to SIB for a play with Bell.. but Denise couldn't make it.. O:
so we didn't go.. plus.. Susanna only got ticks for Sunday.. so it was ruined.. ):
i really wanted to go out and see her.. sadly it didn't happen.. and i couldn't give her her gift.. D:

So yea.. went for lunch.. and then went to buy stuff.. whee! its nice.. ^^ bought couple of shirts..
and then went for dinner.. ALL YOU CAN EAT STEAMBOAT!
its awesome.. haha..
nothing better than having a great fellowship moment with me family and friends..

That's pretty much bout my Christmas.. got lotsa pressy tho.. but didn't have the best one..
all i want for Christmas is you but Santa didn't give it to me.. D:

Well.. 2009 is gonna end soon.. and 2012 is gonna come.. we're all gonna die.. o.O hehe
so yea.. next years 2010.. (: i have a couple of resolutions to make.. and still to accomplish.. hehe.. :P

so yea.. these are the list for my new year resolutions.. (forced by bell) xP

1. I would like to improve tons in my music.. (:
2. Love my family and not take them for granted
3. Love Isabell Liang Sharfen more..
4. Love the lord Jesus Christ even more
5. Try not to spend so much money on phone bills
   
6. Study hard and make mom and dad proud
7. Get my SAT's done
8. Read the bible more
9. Less internet more study
10. To Give HER a wonderful Christmas :D
    

:D so that's pretty much bout it.. hope you peeps out there enjoy your holly's while it lasts..
will update more soon..

cheers..

Merry Christmas and a happy new year

This The Season To Be Jolly

Its the Christmas Season everyone.. (:

HOHOHO!

sorry for the long blankness in my blog.. Ive been busy.. like very busy.. ):

anyways.. just came back from Lydia & Hazel's Christmas Party.. it was fun.. Random much.. xD
played games.. eat.. laugh.. joke.. listened to "Two Is Better Than One" like a million times.. O:

before that i was out with my parents.. was supposed to watch Avatar.. but we left late coz of the stupid Cafe World cooking thingy that my bro got hooked on to.. so.. went to Mid Valley.. then went to Bangsar.. then went to a beauty salon in Bangsar.. saw my cousin suffered in pain when she did her eyebrows.. haha.. xP

so we walked around Bangsar Village a few minutes and talked and checked on Hot dudes and dudets.. haha.. xD
hang out in Starbucks.. and met my parents there..

then we left.. to the Chang's place.. (:

i got lost.. >.< coz the pool area was so huge.. then went for dinner around 10 with my parents.. pretty much a normal day.. (: they went to watch a Malay horror movie called Santau.. glad i wasn't there.. haha.. coz my Malay sucks big time.. not coz im afraid.. xD im English educated "lar".. xD

during dinner i met KIN KIT!!!.. OMG.. its been long bro.. was great seeing you.. (: met the rest of me old friends.. awesome to see them again.. (:

well thats it..
will be heading to lots of Christmas Dinner this month..
and im freaking grounded.. ): NOO!
wish Dad would let me go out for my Christmas gift exchange soon.. anyways.. will update more soon..

hooked on Relient K's
"Deck The Halls, Bruise Your Hand"

I Love you..

8th of December..

I'ts 8th of December.. You all know what it is right.. :D

Anyways.. A thousand apologies for not updating for so long.. will update by tonight kay.. if not tomorrow..

anyways.. thanks for the wishes dudes & dudets.. much appreciated.. :D

fer.

A Tuesday (:

well.. Bell came down on Sunday.. couldn't get to see her on Monday.. ):

so on Tuesday.. i went shopping for awards night.. went and got my shirt from Kitschen.. (:
was supposed to go with Isaac but he left early.. >.< *actually she doesn't have keys to open the grill* xD

so i played with cotton.. sat at the door and waited with Cotton for Bell.. then there she is.. walking through the corridor smiling.. (:

so after that we left to 1Utama.. went and watch 2012.. boy was it predictable.. but it was not to bad..
then we went shopping.. bought my clothes.. took pictures.. went Baskin-Robins.. then after that her dad came to pick us up.. and i went to her place.. and left after a couple of minutes after that.. (:

it was a great day.. a lovely day.. missed that day a lot.. ):

so yea.. the day ended.. sadly.. then next day came.. it was rehearsal and stuff for awards night.. quite boring.. coz there were no surprises on who's gonna get an award.. but then Friday came.. it was fun.. will update on in soon.. (:

cheers..

P.S/ pictures are in Facebook and Bells Blog..

missed that day alot.. missed you especially ♥

A Night Under The "6 feet of Colorful Foam" Stars

Hey.. missed me..? (: I know you did..

Anyways.. This is my first post after er.. *looks back at calender* 2 weeks or so.. so yea.. need to update lots bout what happened on 2 weeks ago.. xD

so.. my last post was the Bunny And The Cat.. (: it was 14th November.. which was Haze's Birthday.. sorry haze didn't post a blog on your birthday.. anyways..

HAPPY *BELATED* BIRTHDAY HAZEL CHANG.. ^^

so yea.. before the 14th was 'A Night Under The "6 feet of Colorful Foam" Stars' a.k.a Movie Night in GRC.. a fund raising event.. it was awesome.. they showed "Miracles" the ice-hockey movie.. I bet Brandon loved it.. xD

before i went to school.. hanged out at Kelvin's place.. he wasn't there when we arrived so we trashed his room.. xD then he came.. played o2jam.. talked.. and forced kelvin to go coz it was like 6.. he insists that it was still early.. he said.. "go at 7 lah!".. i was like.. wth..

so we went off at 6.30 and got stuck in a jam.. but with kelvin.. anything can happen..
there was a police escort behind us.. i think it was some minister dude or something.. so kelvin saw and made a sharp turn and chased after them.. we went quite far after that skipping all the jams.. then when we were under the bridge.. instead of driving in the middle.. he went on the divider and drove on it.. haha.. it gave us lots of time..

so we arrived.. couldn't pick Josephine up cause it was too jammed to go up to Subang and fetch her..

didn't watched the movie much tho.. was talking the whole time.. xD
then mopped up the place when it finished and went for supper.. went home quite late.. and crashed in my room after hanging on the phone for an hour.. xD

so yea.. that's pretty much bout it..

nothing happened after that.. just that Bell came down on Sunday.. (:

anyways.. will post more on my updates soon.. just chill and relax.. check out my blogs as often as you can.. (:

cheers..

Rabbits and Cat.. a great couple.. no..?

Hey.. u guys must be wondering why is my title about rabbits and cats.. haha..

well.. a couple of months ago i was watching a 'Korean' '한국어' flash animation called "There She Is".. Its awesome.. you should check it out.. (:

Its a story about a cat called 'Nabi' and a rabbit 'Doki'.. so its like a Korean soap-opera T.V show.. where this girl likes this guy and lotsa complicating things happened and stuff.. its nice tho.. (:
recommend you guys to watch it.. (:

this is just part one of the video.. be sure to check out more on Sambakza's Channel.. this is the direct link to the movie.. "There She Is"



yea.. so.. be sure to check it out.. its a nice animation.. (:

your were the rabbit, and i was the cat..
it all happened in a blink of an eye..
you know who you are.. ♥

UPDATE!

hey y'all.. the post for 31st October is done.. (:

check it out.. (:

Good & Bad Times (Halloween Post)

Cheers.. (:

randomness (:

hey.. check this out.. xD


dumb right.. xD if u want to check out more of this kind of stuff.. head on to.. Explosm.. its a great site for stupid comics.. xD

and yea.. check out fail blog out..


yea.. so thats it.. randomness.. and the post i posted on 31st October had some screw ups.. re-editing it.. will tell if its done.. (:

anyways.. today was fun.. had a great game of UNO and "rock, papers and scissors" with Bell..

kay.. that's all.. btw.. please follow me in Plurk and Twitter 'lar'.. follow my blog also.. much appreciated.. (:

kays.. i gotta go.. sleeping time.. tomorrows gonna be GRC photo shoot sessions.. wouldn't wanna look sleepy.. G'nitez..

i love you and thats all i really know.. (:
*whispers to bell* ♥

~xoxo~

Two is better than one

Ive got hooked on the song "Two Is Better Than One" by Boys Like Girls.. Its an awesome song.. recommend you peeps to listen to it..

*EDIT* check my previous post.. its the update.. ull know why its at the bottom later.. (:

Anyways.. im updating this for the sake of updating because.. i haven't been updating in a while..
today was ISCF last service.. it was awesome.. Coach Ramaó came and preach again.. (:

he shared about WHO IS JESUS TO YOU?
made me realize lots of things today and during bible study learned about FEAR.. a thing that the devil wants to use it to make us stumble..

oh yea.. GOOD LUCK to all the students whos taking SPM and finals this year.. all the best and hope youll get "flying colors"
and Justine.. all the best in SAT's tomorrow..

lots more things happened this week.. but im kinda lazy to update now.. i promise will update tomorrow tho.. so check my blog out.. hehe..

kay then.. i gtg to sleep.. tired day.. (:

good night peeps..

And maybe it's true, that I can't live without you..
Well maybe two is better than one.. ♥

Good & Bad Times

Hey peeps.. haven't been updating my blog for quite sometime.. Earnings from Nuffnang went up tho.. (:

So, this week wasn't the best week i had, last week was okay, hopefully next week will be the bomb..

Anyways.. HAPPY HALLOWEEN.. (:

BOOGLA UGLA WOOGLA!

*edit* if you guys were wondering.. yea this post has been stalled since 31st October..

31st October Halloween.. it was a great week.. horror stuff.. ghost.. vampires and freaky things.. it was cool.. went for dress up party.. no pics of it.. sorry.. cant take pics in that club.. ):
Dad bought lottsa candy.. i don't know why tho.. its not like someones gonna ring our doorbell and comes trick or treating right.. haha.. anyways.. the pumpkin was carved by my brothers friend.. great aint' it.. (: pictures more at the bottom..





and yea.. i went to Two From Galilee.. i know i know.. Ive been blabbering bout it for a couple of weeks now.. yea.. its just an awesome play.. and LOOK.. i have an extra ticket.. one is torn and one isn't.. what a waste.. my mom didn't wanna go.. so she said donate the ticket to someone.. but no one wanted..




so yea.. i pretty much celebrated my previous week nicely.. (:
had fun..

then the week after came.. it sucks.. a lot.. >.< for most of you who didn't know.. i just got robbed.. yea.. sucks to be me.. ):

It was Sunday and i was suppose to attend Joyce's birthday.. went out around 2pm, wanted to meet Isaac Thong at the LRT station.. didn't wanna ask parents to send cause i didn't wanna bother them so i walked instead of taking a cab.. it was near so yea, and while i was walking.. i was flashing my phone (a dumb thing to do).. so before reaching the LRT.. two guys on a bike came asking me for address..

they said..
"Where about is SS14, do you know?" and my Malay sucks so i don't really know how to give directions in Malay.. so i just say (pergi situ pastu sana) Then the passenger asked me if i was Malay or not, am i a foreigner, do i smoke weed and he said he was a Cop.. so i said "I'm Eurasian and i am a Malaysian.. you wanna see my I.D" then he said never mind.. so i tried to give directions in Malay and it was very bad..

Then the rider raised his voice and said "Do you know the place or not!" so i got frightened and the passenger asked why am i trembling, and he wanted to check me for drugs.. i told him i don't take drugs and he grabbed me and searched me and took my phone out..

I realize he wasn't a cop when i saw his tattoo on his hand.. so i struggled to get out of his grip and tried to fight back.. he was on his bike though when he grabbed me.. by the time i got out from his grip he got my wallet and phone in his hand already.. i tried to push him of the bike, but the bike turned the other way round facing the main road.. i pulled the passenger till he almost fell.. but he didn't.. i don't know why.. >.< then they ran off..

an elderly uncle an aunt witnessed on what happened.. so i ask the aunt for her phone to call 999 and then the uncle sent me home.. i was so in shock i couldn't even open my house grill.. >.< reached home mom was shocked.. then she called friends up to cancel my plans..

then after making a police report we went to KLCC to shop and cool myself down.. Dad bought 2 new phones for me and him but mom said she doesn't want me to lose a new phone again so she gave me her old phone.. ): its not that old tho.. just a couple of months..

so yea.. i couldn't sleep for the past few days.. i feel regret and disappointed.. i mean.. i could do something to stop them.. but i wasn't quick enough.. why didn't i take a cab instead.. why should i go out at that time.. );

anyways.. awards night is coming soon.. haven't bought my clothes yet.. i plan to wear jeans instead.. heh.. yea.. anyways.. i changed my number.. haven't got back my old number.. so whoever wants my number.. PM me kay.. (only to those peeps who has my old contact num) Kay.. im gonna go off.. have a great week y'all.. be careful out there.. the street isn't a safe place like it used to be before..

i will never let you fall,
ill stand up with you forever..
ill be there for you trough it all,
even if saving you sends me to heaven.. ♥

Boys V.S Girls!

hey.. this is just a random update.. coz im just freaking bored.. xD

edit* i didnt know that hazel made a similar thing on this.. and i didnt copy.. (: im original..

as you can see.. this post is called boys vs girls or the other way round.. not being sexist.. hah!
basically.. im gonna rant on the good side and bad side of being a guy or a girl..

and guess what.. i got this inspiration when i was peeing in school today.. haha..
it wont be long tho.. just 10 things on the advantages and disadvantages on being a male or female..
so here goes..

Loo's
The good thing bout being a girl is, having a clean and sanitary wash room (where i got my inspiration from xD). Today i went in to the guys loo in school.. and boy you wouldn't wanna know what was in there.. it was a pile of POOP! floating in the bowl of the pee pee place.. and i decided to hit the other cubicle. My tracks stopped after i saw a dude.. peeing without shutting the door.. i thought it was empty so i was like *need to pee need to pee* and enters the cubicle an i almost bumped into the guy who doing his business.. >.<

colors
boy i hate arguing with colors.. it aint fair right.. for a guy to not wear pink.. and people will think their gay or something to wear pink.. and i hate un-opened minded people.. girls get to wear blue.. y cant we wear pink.. ):

Best friends
girls "so called" best friends comes to visit.. (: PMS, period, watever u call it.. yea.. it sucks to have that.. i cant possibly imagine going through it if i were a girl.. i pity u girls out there.. ): so boys.. be lucky that u dont have a best friend come looking for you on the certain time of the month.. xD

love
dating, confessing yea.. the bad thing bout being a boy is.. we have to confess and let out our feelings.. which is good in away lar.. but too all the low self esteem guys out there.. just let the words come out of your lungs.. it wouldn't hurt.. once a failure twice a winner.. (: right..? lool.. im crapping again.. >.<

baby's
pregnancy.. well.. don't really wanna talk much bout this topic.. scary.. mostly painful.. if u get what i mean.. xD were lucky to be guys..

shopping
girls get to shop and pretty much knows and has more fashion sense then a guy.. and they have more stamina then us to walk the whole mall.. eventhough were guys that works out.. hits the gym or go for sports.. we couldnt walk the whole mall because it isnt out thing.. well get bored.. tired.. and thus.. having cramps the next day.. i salute girls that shops till we drop.. and they have great sense in fashion and when guys shop.. we buy things that dont even match sometimes..

hair
guys has short hair which is totally awesome.. coz girls need to take at least an hour to dry their hair.. and its very hard to maintain a silky smooth long hair.. needs lots of care and love in it.. and guys dont even need to do a single thing bout their hair except shampoo-ing it.. xD
and our hair wont get spoiled if we sleep without clearing off the was, gel, clay etc from our hair..

Experience
girls aren't as strong as guys.. and guys are 10 times stronger then girls.. and we have more experience than girls in everything that has to do with the world.. we are wise in a way.. we are great cooks though.. if you haven't notice.. most of the cooks or chefs in AFC are guys.. xD

cash
girls dont need to spend a single cent when their on a date coz we guys.. are so gentleman enough to pay, buy everything that our date touches.. how lucky it is to be a girl.. people buy you expensive gifts.. >.<

lastly

authority
girls has to listen to guys.. simple as that.. xD

yea.. so thats pretty much about it.. my rant on being a boy and girl.. its pretty much one sided thought dont you think.. xD well duh.. im a guy.. i support my own gender..
but i dont look down on girls though.. they have helped me alot in a way.. (:
and i thanks them for that.. imagine a world without girls.. it would suck now wouldnt it.. (:
and im not triyng to be sexist or anything.. just bored much so im just doing it for fun..

love all you peeps out there..

pictures of "Two from Galilee"

Here are the pictures from the play "Two From Galilee" performed by The Canticle Singers

I do not own these pictures.
These pictures are taken by the official Canticle Singers photographers.
photos are taken from Smug Mug and Buggershots.

The cast of "Two From Galilee"

The three wise men at the birth of baby Jesus

Jacob and his father (Caleb and Liang)

The three Wise men (Chris, Brian and Jon)

Mary's father (Collin)

click here to get tickets >>> Two From Galilee

Baby I'm Back!

hello.. its been a while since i last update.. my bad.. was just buzy or more like lazy.. >.<
btw im with Nuffnang now.. so if you guys dont mind, do follow my blog.. dont stalk tho.. just follow.. (;
and spread the news..

anyways.. i just came back from "Two from Galilee" presented by The Canticle Singers.. my moms ex choir group.. ^^
it was an awesome play, two thumbs up and better still.. its directed an acted by Malaysians.. (:

for any inquiries, just click on the picture.. it directs u straight to the sight.. plays still on till next week.. recommend all of you to watch it.. its superb..

yea.. so after the show.. met Joanne Poh, Ps. Caleb and Jon Ti.. the cast of the play.. i still recognize some of them tho, but cant remember names.. O.+ talk to them.. took some pics and left.. (:

pictures will be uploaded soon tho.. i couldn't take pictures during the play.. and Bell.. im sorry couldn't text you during the show.. ):

so yea.. it was a busy week for me.. and guess what.. parents went to Port Dickson for a HOLIDAY!!!! woohooo!! xD (actualy its just a day trip) -__- but still awesome time home with Keach.. he doesnt bother me much.. :P

okay.. my McD is here.. i gtg take my dinner..
will update soon kay..

cheers.. await of my upcoming post.. teehee..

The Music Of Hearts

Didn't you want to hear ,the sound of all the places we could go. Do you fear the expressions on the faces we don't know. It's a cold hard road when you wake up and I don't think that I have the strength to let you go..
Maybe it's just me, Couldn't you believe that everything I said and did, wasn't just deceiving.
And the tear in your eye, and your calm hard face makes me wish that I was never brought into this place..
There goes my ring, It might as well have been shattered and I'm here to sing about the things that mattered, about the things that made us feel alive for oh so long, about the things that kept you on my side when I was wrong..
And someday, I promise I'll be gone. And someday, I might even sing this song, To you, I might even sing this song, to you, and I was crying alone tonight, and I was wasting all of my life just thinking of you..

But wait.. thinking of you was never a waste of time..

maybe i would.. maybe i would sing this song to you..
even though we are apart, you will always be in my heart..
i still love you.. ♥

Roses are red, Violets are blue. My blood is red, when its cut by you.

I don't know where to start. I don't really know how to put in in words, its just stuck in my head. A vision of it. It just tortures me at night. That's the reason why i cant sleep at night. Cant erase it from my head. It just hurts me to think of that.

From the looks of it, I think I'm stupid. A fool, A sucker, A dork and A Jerk. All just because of LOVE. The four letter word that kills every being in this earth. The word that made most people heartbroken and depressed by it. Love isn't a bad thing, but its the person that your in love with.

I used to think that, everything will be okay. But it didn't, it never went okay. I seriously don't really know what to think know. I'm hearing things here and there, don't know if i should believe in them or not. It sucks you know.

I used to think, whether its because of what i used to do. I know i wasn't treating my ex well and I'm really sorry for that. Not everyone is perfect right. Not everyone can keep to their words. So it was meant for me too. That's what i used to think.

But.. what happened to all the good things i ever did? Why aren't there any good things happening around me? Why does it always have to fall down the drain when everything's going so perfect? Why..? I find that there's no use questioning it. It has already passed anyway. But do I deserve this? When all i care was you and no one other. When i had to get into trouble, just because i had to do something for you. Do i deserve it, to be left alone.

It happened again, why? why is it when you love someone it dont always go the right way? When all u did was help that someone with problems, cared for them, gave them your shoulder when they need it. And guess what, u got rejected for some guy down the road.

Its just so messed up. Its true that if life has no ups and downs, it wouldn't be life. But come to think of it, its so damn unfair to some of us in this world.

I feel like, I'm just a stupid guy who falls for something really easy and doesn't know that something bad is gonna hit him down the road, that doesn't care for himself but cares for the one he loves and cared most. Which is very stupid of me to do that. But I've learned my lesson. Its better not to bother about things that u really care the most because one day, down the road, its all gonna shatter into pieces.

I don't know why, it just bothers me..
Maybe its just an emotional breakdown or shitty EMO feelings..
caused by hearing to much rumors and tales and gossips here and here..
whatever it is, i'm not gonna think much bout it..

letting everything go.
whatever happens, happens.

stars, moon, clouds.. reminds me of you..

There used to be more than a million stars in the night sky.. now they're fading away slowly.. it makes me worried in the night..
the moon is slowly fading too.. and im losing my inspiration, its gone, without a direction..

When your face flashed in a glimpse of silent.. there was a flicker and a bright light..
was it the star.. or.. was it the moon.. no it wasnt.. i just realize it was you.. (:

Just a Glimpse of you.. made me smile like i never did before..
Just to dream with you.. makes me happy and worries no more..

Oh please forgive me if this disturbs u in anyway..
I didnt mean to do that.. but im just saying what i have to say..
Oh please smile, cause i wont get to see it in awhile..
you are my inspiration.. your my moon and my star..

to you.. everything was meant for you.. ♥

Mistakes i've made never made me regret it..

*drum rolls - tru~ ker-chiang!! Hellooooo~ x)

well.. havent update in two weeks now.. well.. i did.. but it was just a minor update.. (:
so.. where did i stopped.. *looks back at older post* Ah.. kayz..
so.. last post was after term break.. yea.. well.. i basically did nothing much during the last two weeks.. i cant even remember what i did tho.. @.@
the first week went back to school.. as usual.. normal week.. (:
Had our first ISCF "Next Degree" on the 11th of this month.. it was adrenaline-pumping.. mind blowing.. acceleratingly fun.. (: had a breakthrough when Ps. Gurmith "PCK" Singh preached.. well.. not much people came tho.. but no one felt dissapointed cause at least some people came.. (:
yea.. so that was ISCF day.. (:






And then.. the weekends i practically just sat at home.. online.. well.. i still went out of course.. at night mostly.. (: then the week after that came.. didnt went to school cause my Bro was sick.. so stayed at home.. and went to school on Wednesday.. yea.. pretty boring eh..
so.. on Friday was our 2nd meeting.. but i didnt went.. no transport.. coz most of the schools were on holiday so my transporter couldnt pick me up.. so i missed the 2nd service.. ):

anyways.. gotta catch up on my work too.. cant just do maths only.. >.<

yea.. thats pretty much bout it..

main events..

September 14th.. Happy Burfdae Sara Carlyle.. <3
sorry couldn't get you presents this year tho.. and sorry couldn't celebrate with you on your 17th birthday.. anyways.. owe you lotsa a presents.. will get it for you soon.. (: take carez..

september 15th Happy Burfdae Elean Jie.. <3
haven't talked to you in a while tho.. sorry couldn't text you on your birthday.. anyways.. take care.. love you lots.. (:

anyways.. happy birthday to all the September babies.. (: there's alot of you which i know of.. and am lazy to write the names.. (: teehee.. sorry tho..

sincerly yours.. me.. (:

Kay.. that was the simplest update ive ever did.. will post something some other time again.. I"L BE BACK!! (:

a lonely month without you

Without YOU makes a lonely September..

I'm sittin here all by myself just tryin to think of something to do..
Tryin to think of something.. anything just to keep me from thinking of you..
But you know it's not working out.. cause you're all that's on my mind..
One thought of you is all it takes to leave the rest of the world behind..
I'm sittin' here tryin' to convince myself that you're not the one for me..
But the more I think, the less I believe it and the more I want you here with me..
You know the holidays are coming up and i don't want to spend them alone..
it will just kill me if I'm on my own..
I'm sittin' here tryin' to entertain myself with this old guitar..
But with all my inspiration gone it's not getting me very far..

And I didn't mean to fall in love, but I did..

Now its a lonely month for me..

do you even know that i love you..?

P/S will post on how my week went tomorrow..

The Night Sky And Stars Makes Me Think Of Your Eyes..

the night sky make me think of your eyes ♥

Hey peeps.. its been long since i last updated my blog.. *blows dust from keyboard

last week was term break.. (: had a great time with friends and family.. did lotsa things during my break.. and on Monday was independence day.. MERDEKA!!

okay.. so on the 1st day of term break John Robs called me.. asked me and Denice out.. well.. i didnt wanna go at 1st coz dont really wanna be the lamppost when they were together.. :P joking Rob.. so we went to One Utama.. called up miko to follow me but she was busy.. so i went alone there.. ): watched "Ghost of My Girlfriends Past" it was scary in a way.. heh..
then went to shop for stuff with Rob after Denice had left.. and went home.. went out that night again after i reached home.. (:

next day did ntg much.. same thing.. hanging out with friends.. went out for the whole week and was just "lepaking".. went out at night most.. and ive gotten fat.. like really fat.. been eating Mc'D like every night coz of my bro and Kyle.. -__-

then on Thurs went to hang out with friends in school.. Kelvin, Haze, Saph, Raquel, was there.. went to atria to get lunch.. later on had brass band practise for Merdeka Futsal Cup.. head back home and went out again.. :P

Friday stayed back at home coz needed to help mom with Devotions and stuff..

on saturday was Jasmines Birthday.. "Happy Burfdae Jas <3">then went out with family that night.. went to watch "UP".. it was so sad.. its like.. wth.. he bought tickets for his wife to go for a holiday and she died.. T_T sorry if i ruined it for you peeps.. eheh.. but it was a great movie tho.. (:

next day went out with bros college mates.. and on monday too.. after Merdeka Cup..
had pictures in my cam.. but its spoiled.. -__- so cant take pictures out.. SWT!!

and then back to school on monday.. had a normal school week.. (: Uncle Kevin is "Creepy" sometimes.. he said "I heard about yesterday, Its something you should do or shouldnt have" and i was like.. huh..? still thinking what was it tho.. @.@

im seriously craving for Starbucks.. i want a caramel frap.. ):

and my dads food.. i dont know whats it called tho.. but its GOOD-DAH! ^^

yea.. so that was it.. term break and back to school updates.. pretty boring eh..? xD

dont really know if i forget anything or not.. tell me if i do guys.. (:

missing you every moment..

feelings leads to an empty valley...

i met a winding road thats taking me to places that i didnt want to go.. and in a blink of an eye.. im holding on to something.. i dont even know why
i tried to read between the lines, i tried to look in your eyes.. i want a simple explanation for what im feeling inside.. im trying to find a way out.. gotta get out.. maybe there is a way out.. but i cant move a muscle i cant even pick up the phone.. i dont know why..
i just found out why..

i was love struck..




but i have something doubting inside.. and..

i wish i could tell you..

do you know your voice was the soundtrack of my summer..? do you know your unlike any other..? do you know that your eyes are the brightest of all the colors..? i would never love another.. i wish u were the thunder and im the rain..

now im walking on a tight rope.. im wrapped up in vines..
im confused on my feelings.. on what i should do..

so this post goes to you.. even if you dont know who YOU are..

i think its time to let it go.. my feelings towards you.. its hard for me to do it.. but its for the greater good..

i think you knew that i liked you, that i loved you.. everyone said its obvious.. well, i cant really tell if it was obvious or not..

the reason why i didnt confess my feelings was because.. i didnt want to make you hurt.. i didnt want you to end up hating me for being with you..
i was thinking.. thinking very long the other day.. that im not good in keeping relationships steady.. i dont know why though..
so.. im going to do what is best for you.. even if it hurts me..
i know i cant forget you.. i will still love you.. ill still miss you.. missing you more each second..

but i dont think i can let go.. it will still be just the same.. continue repeating like before.. i will still love you.. i still cant forget bout you..
i dont know if i should let my feelings go..

im trapped in a valley with my feelings.. im stuck in a middle of nowhere drowned by my feelings.. i dont know what to do..

..i still love you.. thats all i know..

holding on to hopes that doesnt even exist..
confused and doesnt know what to do..

Tagged By Elean Jie.. (34 questions)

What have you been doing recently?
* talking online.. wondering..

2. Do you ever turn your handphone off?
* when it dies.. then its off..

3. What happened at 10am today?
* i was still sleeping..??

4. When did you last cry?
* a week ago or so..

5 . Believe in Fate/Destiny?
* yeap..

6 . What do you want in life now?
* you.. (: getting a degree in graphics.. or computing..

7 . Do you carry an umbrella when it rains or just put up your hood?
* when its heavy.. umbrella.. when it drizzles.. hood..

8. What's your favourite thing to do on bed ?
* this is a dumb sick question.. o.0 read.. text... talk on the phone.. play guitar.. sleep..

9. What bottoms are you wearing now?
* boxers..

10 . What are the nicest things in your inbox? -
* cant tell.. privacy..

11. Do you tend to make relationships complicated?
* nope..

12 . Are you wearing anything borrowed from anyone?
*nope..

13 . What was the last movie you caught?
* cant remember.. prison break season 4.. the whole season in a day.. :P

14 . What are you proud of ?
* my talent.. well.. cant be really proud of it tho.. God gave it to me..

15 . What does the oldest text msg in your inbox says and who is it from?
* last year.. its says.. "night babe.. love you.. (etc)" from some girl from sri KL

16. What was the last song you sang out loud?
* thunder by boys like girls..

17. Do you have any nicknames?
* fer fer.. :P

18 . What does the newest text msg says and who is it from?
* mom.. help take her stuff..

19 . What time did you go to sleep last night?
* 3 something.. idk..

20. Are you currently happy?
* kinda..

21 . Who gives you the best advice?
* erm.. my frenz and parents.. depends

22 . Do you eat whipped cream straight from the can ?
* yea.. xD

23 . Who do you talked to on phone last night?
* supposed to talk to joyce.. but end up talking to grace..

24 . Is something bugging you right now?
* yea..

25 . Who is the last person to make you laugh?
* erm... grace..?

26.Do you like yourself?
* duh..

27.Do you think you are stupid sometimes?
* not stupid.. but childish..

28.Who is your best friend?
* someone.. (:

29.What will you do if you like that boy?
* im not gay.. haha... well.. if i liked that girl.. ill try not to be so obvious in liking her..

30.Who are your favourite stars?
* i dont learn astrology..

31.You hate your mother sometimes in some ways?
* never.. she brought me to this world.. how can i hate her..

32.Do you had even stead before?
* whats even stead..?

33.what type of boy do you like?
* me not gay..

34.Now are you single/attached?
* single..

when love comes around.. it plays my feelings..

can i tell you how i feel..? tell me if i can.. i want to know more about you.. your secrets.. tell me if i can..
i think i love you.. but i cant be sure.. i think im in love with you.. but im to secure..
i dont wanna tell you.. i dont think you'd understand.. i wish i can come to you with a rose on my hand..
i think i love you my dear friend.. but i dont think you love me back.. what is wrong with me..?
i dont wanna tell you i love you.. because i think you'll see.. guess im dumb to think of that..
my rose at hand and a feelings in my heart.. i wish i could let it out to you..

the reason why im not telling you yet is because i dont want to make you hurt if i think my feelings is just playing with me.. i dont even know whether its an infatuation or real..
your like a precious angel and i dont wanna influence you on stuffs that i get into..
i dont want you to be the one i throw all my feelings on if im down, sad or mad..

"i was born to tell you i love you" but isnt that a song already.. i know im not that good in being original.. but i think i do love you.. i think i really was born to say i love you..

i think i really do..

Creo que te amo, creo que hacer ♥

Chocolates for you (:

Yesterday, mom just went in the operation room around 6.. was so worried that anything might happen.. thanks to Haze making me chill with a game of truth or truth.. got to keep my mind off of it for a while.. and Justine for listening to me when i was emo-ing for no reason..
the last i talk to mom was around evening.. then she had to go in.. then waited till 11 something till the phone rang when it was almost 12.. dad called me up saying that the doctor said moms okay.. and shes still unconscious.. thats a good thing to hear.. (:
thanks guys for praying... and thank you God for answering..


will be going to see mom today.. cant wait.. (:
kayz.. i gotta pack up and wait for my neighbor to arrive..
will update more soon..
cheers..

boxes of chocolates for you (:
your favorites..

blue sky, happy moments

hey guys.. been long since i updated my blog..
was very lazy to update it.. hehe..

Sports Fiesta just ended.. Team C got 1st place.. wootz.. Who would've guessed.. it was fun today.. slept over at Kelvins house.. actually we barely slept.. was out till 4.. then went home and crashed.. woke up like super duper late.. then arrived there late some more..

so yea.. sports fiesta was awesome.. (:

yesterday had a shock when dad called me up.. mom got admitted into the hospital.. i was at kelv's house when he called.. why so sudden..? why must this happen..? dad said the doctor said she had appendicitis or in-phlegmed ovary.. and needs to do an operation.. i hate it when im not at home and someone is in the hospital suffering.. i hope your okay mom.. i hope you'll be fine when i visit you.. the worst thing is i dont have transport there.. my dad is out station.. what a suckish day to be in.. i just hope that God's with her when im not there.. i really miss you mom.. i wanna see you.. haih..

well.. actually sports day wasnt that great tho.. i was so darn worried bout mommy.. and then haze lost her stuff.. stupid human who stole it.. dont they know that people has important stuffs in their bags.. hope they'll fall in a public toilet where theres full of shit..

hmm.. dont really know wat to blog about apart from sadness and sucky day.. i dont know why.. i feel weirded out.. end empty inside.. its like theres a space in my heart filled with only air and its so free and empty.. kinda bad thing tho.. well.. i think im gonna go sleep early to end this day..

if only clouds could carry me to see you;
your so far but your stil in my heart..

mom i love you.. fer misses you

After school thingy..

am at Celines house now.. celebrating her birthday today..

dont really know wat to do.. so ended up infront of her pc.. :P

L.O.U.D is this Sunday.. going with Kelvin or Ryan..

today.. drove around in Kelvins car.. coz was bored..
the Kenari was auto.. so it wasnt fun.. but it was ok lar..

then next week gonna go out with school mates.. off to watch Harry Potter..

basketball tourney was over.. will update on that soon..

aight.. im off.. ill update most of the things up soon..

ciaoz..

Whats Up! camp aftermath

hey guys.. well.. havent update lately.. coz my internet got canceled off and just subscribed to streamyx.. yay.. no more suckish maxis.. whee.. (:

well.. just came back from camp in PD.. it was fun.. superbly fun.. had lots of breakthroughs during camp..

okay okay.. updates..

Day 1 of camp.

went to school as usual.. but no one was there.. except us who was going for the camp.. left around 1 something.. reached there bout 3.. it was nice smelling the breeze of the ocean again.. its been long since i went to the beach.. (: really missed it..

so after we arrived there.. packed up.. went to the chapel hall.. and had a briefing on whats gonna happen.. i was chosen as a leader.. well.. it was hard being a leader.. but thanks to my group and God.. it was easy.. (: the guys in my groups was.. Melinda Lien.. (my assistant) Isaac k. Saph, Timothy, Jared, Kah Sheng, Jon Teh and Avlvin.. Sarah See was suppose to be there too.. but she didnt come..

so.. first day.. we starter of with a game.. a war game.. it was a "Castle Fight" with cards.. kinda hard to made a castle out of cards tho.. but we managed it.. thanks to Saph.. the brains in the team.. (: then at night had devotion.. the dinner wasnt so bad.. (: and after dinner.. we had a war game.. it was kinda like a spy kinda game.. it was fun.. coz we couldnt see a thing and simply guessed a name we can think off..

"castle fight"

"aftermath of the castle fight"

Day 2 of camp.

day 2 of camp was fun.. had to do devotion.. it was kinda scary.. i really had to thank Isaac and Saph for helping me in devotion.. it was my first time doing it.. and was pretty nervous..

then.. we had a water balloon fight.. my shirt got all ruined during the balloon pumping thing.. it was filled with paint.. and worst of all.. my surf pants is ruined badly.. but it looks cool with all the splatty splatty paint effect.. xD

then at night.. uncle Phillip came to preach.. mr. Emmanuel was there too.. it was a great night of the rally..

the presence of the lord was there.. i could really feel it from the beginning of the worship.. tears burst after worship.. and the sermon really sinked in too me.. i gotta do lots of things right in my life.. then uncle phillip pulled the alter call.. it really convicted my heart.. when Mr. Nick, miss Cath and Uncle Phillip prayed for me.. i cried so hard coz i felt really bad.. and regreted all that i have done.. its like.. ive been telling God that ill change.. and wont do stuffs that i ussually do.. but i never did it.. and when Uncle Phillip prayed for me.. it really woke me up.. and i realize that God really want me to change.. and that he has a plan and purpose.. i really missed camp.. and i wish that every night could be like that one night when God really touched my heart..

well.. i really missed those times in camp..

"filling water ball

"Filling Balloon"

thats all for the things that happened in camp..

this post goes for the commitees.. thanks for organizing this camp.. i really had a great time.. and this camp made relationships with frenz much more better.. i really wanna thank lydia for everything she had done.. i know that we wasnt really good there.. and didnt really listened to you.. and im sorry for not doing that too.. and i thanks you for looking after us and reminding us of what we had to do.. (: and Wee Yen.. thanks for sharing to me and ministering to me on that day.. great to have frenz like u guys..


Wee Yen, Lydia, Kelvin, Sarah, Hazel, Bryant and Ian.. you guys really did a good job.. cant wait for next years camp..

"Here I Am Send Me" isaiah 6:18

The power lines went out
And I am all alone
But I don’t really care at all
Not answering my phone
All the games you played
The promises you made
Couldn’t finish what you started
Only darkness still remains

Lost sight
Couldn’t see
When it was you and me

Blow the candles out
Looks like a solo tonight
But I think I’ll be alright

Been black and blue before
There’s no need to explain
I am not the jaded kind
Playback’s such a waste
You’re invisible
Invisible to me
My wish is coming true
Erase the memory of your face

Blow the candles out
Looks like a solo tonight
I’m beginning to see the light

One day
maybe u'll wake up
With nothing but “you're sorrys”
And someday
You will get back
Everything you gave me

bled by a beautiful rose..

camp is coming soon.. (: cant wait.. well.. we have lots of boys that will be coming.. not much girls though.. ): sad..
anyways.. 2 more weeks till camp.. xD too excited.. this is the 1st school camp that reminds me of church camp.. whee..!

"okay.. updates on the past week.."

went back to school after a long mid term break.. it was kinda okay at the first week but it got boring after the second week.. went back to school.. didnt see much peeps around.. was bored the whole week.. no one to talk to except gong.. new kids came to the school.. their sitting in the same transporter as me.. (:
get to go back late now.. coz the aunty has to make 2 trips.. whee.. get to stay back late in school.. well.. yea. thats all i guess.. boring days in school..

anyways check this sign out..

THIS IS SPARTA!!

haha.. cute eh.. damn kids went to vandalise this thing.. xD



well.. things isn't going that well though.. had to make choices..
really tough choices.. the Pipers came to our school the on Friday..
gotta make choices in life.. bad and good ones.. well.. dont make bad
decisions of course..
i dont really know what to do though.. stuck with problems in life..
and relationship issues..

someone told me.. if you really love that person.. give her all you got..
dont flirt with others so she knows that u really mean it..
i gotta set my priorities right.. no more flirting..
even if its hard for me.. i gotta try change.. its all for the greater good..

well.. i have lots of things to change and make choices on..
cant do it on my own.. but ill make it through with Christ who strengthens me..

where are you when i needed you.. ;
my heart was bled by a beautiful rose..

tagged by paullyn.. 100 question..

001. Real Name: Keiffer James Barry
002. Nickname(s): Fer-fer.. Jamey.. Strawberry.. Kiwi.. -__- (thanks to beebee..)
003. Age: 16 going on 17..
004. Horoscope: sagitarius.. but don’t believe in them..
005. Gender: male..
006. Elementary: Chinese Pre-K (dunno the name)
007. Primary School: Chinese school ( oso dunno the name)
008. Secondary School: Dumb malay school and nice Grace Resource Centre
010. Hair Colour: Black & brown
011. Hair Length: short..
012. Loud or Quiet: Depends on my mood.. (:
013. Sweats or Jeans: both.. jeans when im not running.. sweats when im working out..
014. Phone or Camera: Phone..
015. Health Freak: YES!
016. Drink or Smoke: drink.. xD
017. Do you have a crush on someone: YES.. ):
018. Eat or Drink: EAT!
019. Piercings: none.. gonna get soon..
020. Tattoos: a tribal sun at my belly button.. soon.. xD
021. Social or Anti-Social: social..
022. Righty or lefty: Righty
023. First piercing: I say none lar..
024. First relationship: 11..
025. First Best Friend: James Too.. (: miss ya bro..
026. First Award: erm.. forgot d lar..
027. First Kiss: cant say.. xD
028. First Pet: fighting fish.. red color.. (:
029. First Big Vacation: cant remember.. so small that time..
030. First Love at first sight: had one..
031. First Big Birthday: sweet 16.. cool 10.. and happy 5..
032. First Surgery: when I was born.. xD
033. First sport you joined: fencing.. selangor athletes fencing association
034. Orange or Apple juice: orange.. more vitamin c..
035. Rock or Rap: rock and pop..
036. Country or Screamo: both..
037. NSYNC or Backstreet boys: er.. none..
038.Britney Spears or Christina Aguilera: christina..
039. Night or Day: night..
040. Sun or Moon:Moon
041. TV or Internet: internet.. don’t watch tv much..
042. Playstation or Xbox: Playstation
043. Kiss or hug: BOTH but seriously depends on who!
044. Iguana or turtle: Turtle! They are cute!
045. Spider or bee: none.. bee hurts.. spider kills.. ):
046. Fall or spring: fall.. cooling..
047. Limewire or iTunes: u-torrent.. xD
048. Soccer or baseball: baseball.. I dunno how kick to ball..
049. Eating: erm.. I dunno.. but it was nice..
050. Drinking: orange juice..
051. Excitement level: when im happy with my frenz.. I go super duper hyper..
052. I’m about to: sleep.. finish doing this tag.. lol..
053. Listening to: Come Holy Spirit..
054. Plan for today: work out.. do atleast 2 books..
055. Waiting for: bed time.. xD
056. Energy Level: 30% left.. so tired..
057. Thinking of someone: yes.. ):
058. Want kids?: yes.. one girl one boy.. xD
059. Want to get married?: duh.. want kids of coz wan to marry lar..
060. When?: when I have lots og money.. and can support my mom and dad and my family..
061. How many kids do you want: 2
062. Any name on the mind: erm.. sure go Barry at the end. xD
063. What do you want to do: nothing..
065. Mellow future or wild: wild.. mellows boring..
066. Something you would never try : eating poop

067. When do you want to die: when I have live my life to the max
068. Lips or Eyes: Eyes! Shows expressions..
069. Romantic or Funny?: both..
070. Shorter or Taller?: shorter.. xD
071. Protective or Caring?: caring..
072. Romantic or Spontaneous?: romantic..
073. Nice Stomach or Nice Arms?: nice body.. xP
074. Sensitive or Loud?: erm.. both..
075. Hook-up or Relationship?: both.. xP
076. Trouble Maker or Hesitant?: both..
077. Muscular or normal: wait.. is this question all bout me..? or my type of partner..?
078. Kissed a stranger: erm.. yea..
079. Broken a bone: nope..
080. Lost glasses or contacts: don’t wear one..
081. Ran away from home: 3 times..
082. Held a gun/knife for self defence: knife..
083. Killed somebody: nope.. im a good boy..
084. Broken someone’s heart: yea.. im sorry.. ):
085. Had your heart broken: Yea.. well.. I got over it..
086. Been arrested: in a mall.. once.. xD
087. Cried when someone died: yes.. haih.. he was just a kid..
088. Liked a friend more than a friend: yea.. ^^
089. Yourself: whats this..?
090. Miracles: yes.. God showed me miracles..
091. Love at first sight: yea.. xD twice..
092. Heaven: I believe..
093. Santa Claus: hohoho.. im 16 now.. cant fool me..
094. Tooth Fairy: my mom was the tooth fairy.. -__-
095. Kiss in the first date: yea..
096. Angels: mighty helpers of God..
097. Is there 1 person you want to be with right now?: YOU!
098. Are you seriously happy with where you’re in life now?: yea.. okok lar..
099. Do you believe in God?: DUH!
100. Post as 100 truths and tag 10 people: Lazy tag ppl lar.. sorry..

btw.. sorry posted your tag late paullyn..