Roses are red, Violets are blue. My blood is red, when its cut by you.

I don't know where to start. I don't really know how to put in in words, its just stuck in my head. A vision of it. It just tortures me at night. That's the reason why i cant sleep at night. Cant erase it from my head. It just hurts me to think of that.

From the looks of it, I think I'm stupid. A fool, A sucker, A dork and A Jerk. All just because of LOVE. The four letter word that kills every being in this earth. The word that made most people heartbroken and depressed by it. Love isn't a bad thing, but its the person that your in love with.

I used to think that, everything will be okay. But it didn't, it never went okay. I seriously don't really know what to think know. I'm hearing things here and there, don't know if i should believe in them or not. It sucks you know.

I used to think, whether its because of what i used to do. I know i wasn't treating my ex well and I'm really sorry for that. Not everyone is perfect right. Not everyone can keep to their words. So it was meant for me too. That's what i used to think.

But.. what happened to all the good things i ever did? Why aren't there any good things happening around me? Why does it always have to fall down the drain when everything's going so perfect? Why..? I find that there's no use questioning it. It has already passed anyway. But do I deserve this? When all i care was you and no one other. When i had to get into trouble, just because i had to do something for you. Do i deserve it, to be left alone.

It happened again, why? why is it when you love someone it dont always go the right way? When all u did was help that someone with problems, cared for them, gave them your shoulder when they need it. And guess what, u got rejected for some guy down the road.

Its just so messed up. Its true that if life has no ups and downs, it wouldn't be life. But come to think of it, its so damn unfair to some of us in this world.

I feel like, I'm just a stupid guy who falls for something really easy and doesn't know that something bad is gonna hit him down the road, that doesn't care for himself but cares for the one he loves and cared most. Which is very stupid of me to do that. But I've learned my lesson. Its better not to bother about things that u really care the most because one day, down the road, its all gonna shatter into pieces.

I don't know why, it just bothers me..
Maybe its just an emotional breakdown or shitty EMO feelings..
caused by hearing to much rumors and tales and gossips here and here..
whatever it is, i'm not gonna think much bout it..

letting everything go.
whatever happens, happens.