have i just woken up from a dream..?

havent update in a long while..

dont really have much time to online now..

and had a pretty rough week so far..

well.. this post is gonna go out for someone out there..

just to let you know.. i cant wait any longer..

i keep having doubts on certain things..

i still do miss you.. i still love you..

but.. its time to let go..

im sorry..

its like ive just woke up from a fairy tale dream..

so beautiful and happy moments..

all the memories.. the joy we shared..

but now its all gone..

disappeared right before my eyes..

i still remember when you were there beside me..

now all thats left for me is a reminiscence of time..

its hard to say this but.. ive lost my feelings..

and ive got to move on..

its okay if you dont reply my msg..

or answer my call.. i dont mind..

and my last msg.. was my last goodnight..

goodbye..

David Archuleta's Barriers is kinda like wat goes around my situation now..

the words just sinks in to me..

Well, I don't know how to say this right
And the words got me chokin'
I keep hittin' this wall
It's never gonna fall
And we're still broken
This mountain we've been trying to climb
It's never ending
Just can't do nothing
Gotta do something
'Cause if we don't open up our eyes
We're just pretending

Well, there's a time for givin' up
Didn't want to have to say it
All we doin' is building walls
And now there's too many barriers

Here we are lying here
It's our last final goodnight
Just because it feels so good
No use pretending we're alright
Too many locks, too many crimes
Too many tears, too many lies
Too many barriers

Just too many barriers
That we keep running into
Been tryin', but we just can't break through
I know I'm gonna keep wishing I was with you
But we just gotta stop