well, march 10th wasn't a normal day, today wasn't a normal day. i don't know but ive been feeling a little lot more sucky than any usual day.
school was bullshit today. i don't know why but it feels, different. while i was waiting for my car to arrive, thought about what kelvin told me the other day he said...
"you know, when we dont have someone to text we'll feel bored, but if we have someone to text, we'll feel annoyed"it might not make sense but, it made sense to me.. i some sort of way..
i don't know why, i think of the past more often now. i don't want to but its like im not controlling my mind.
well.. i seriously don't know what to think.. what to do.. what to say.. im stuck, in the middle of nothing. im falling an endless fall. drifting apart, further and further. i want to come back.
i just want you to be there. i hate it when people asked me how am i with you, and i have to fake a smile and say "were good".
most of my friends say their jealous to see me and you posting pictures of ourselves. im lucky to have someone like you. i really am. but your so much better for me.. im just a kid who lives in a normal house. whose dad only owns one landed property, who owns one car. a mom that has an average job and a normal housewife.
well.. all i can say is.. Bells.. you know that i love you very much, and i dont want you to disappear, dont want you to lose from my sight. your special, i mean it. i can say it from my heart and my tummy will tingle when i say it. whatever it is, im trying to make it work between us. everything i ever did, was for you. i love you girl.
it doesnt make sense, but it will sooner or later
xx
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