tormented by my thoughts..

everyone has a problem with relationships..
even a guy who has been with many girls still has problems being in a relationship..
even though you know how to win a girls heart.. you still dont know how to be loyal to them..

im feeling the exact way right now..
i dont know if i can take it any longer..
i keep having doubts that u dont really love me anymore..
its like your trying to avoid me..
i know.. im stupid to think that way..
but i cant help it..

i cant stand crying at night.. just thinking bout you..
i cant stand the hurt.. the pain.. inside of me..

cutting myself doesnt make any difference..
i bleed but all the pain is still inside me..
choking me.. killing me slowly..

been emo this past few days..
i just want to know whether u still have feelings for me..
i miss hearing your voice..
now when i call you.. all i hear is the receiver.. beeping.. total silence..
i miss talking to you.. i miss being with you..

ill still wait for you no matter what happens..

just to let you know.. i love you with all my heart..
dont want you to dissapear from my life..

A Twist In My Story

Slow down, the world isn't watching us break down
It's safe to say we are alone now, we're alone now
Not a whisper, the only noise is the receiver
I'm counting the seconds until you break the silence
So please just break the silence

The whispers turn to shouting
The shouting turns to tears
Your tears turn into laughter
And it takes away our fears

So you see, this world doesn't matter to me
I'll give up all I had just to breathe
The same air as you till the day that I die
I can't take my eyes off of you

I'm longing, for words to describe how I'm feeling
I'm feeling inspired
My world just flips, turned upside down
It turns around, say what's that sound
It's my heart beat, it's getting much louder
My heart beat, is stronger than ever
I'm feeling so alive, I'm feeling so alive

I'm finally waking up, a twist in my story
It's time I open up, and let your love right through me
I'm finally waking up, a twist in my story
It's time I open up, and let your love right through me
That's what you get
When you see your life through someone else's eyes
That's what you get, that's what you get

So you see, this world doesn't matter to me
I'll give up all I had just to breathe
The same air as you till the day that I die
I can't take my eyes off of you

I Love You.. <3

update on 1st day of GRC..

okay.. heres the update on my 1st day in GRC... ^^

sorry it took so long tho..

i came into GRC like a month ago.. its a cool school..
better than my old one.. the students are friendly..
the 1st day was kinda boring coz i didnt know anyone yet..
talked to Justine on my 1st day.. she was friendly.. (:
then met Zoey.. the only person i know in that school.. xD
my table partner was Jon.. hes a quite guy..

well.. lotsa thing happen in that school for the past 1 and a half month..
met lotsa people.. get to know them.. make new friends..

i know that abbigail.. is a devil child.. xD haha.. jkjk.. shes kinda fun to hang out with..
and shes very random sometimes.. her moms nice tho...
tetsuo's a funny perverted japanese kid.. xD
neilson's a joker.. Justines the emo type.. xP Brandon's a gangster.. actually hes a cool guy when u get to know him.. well.. met lotsa ppl that are friendly.. but lazy to type..
sorry guys.. xD

well all i can say is.. this school is much cooller than my old one.. (:

thats the update.. (: im lazy to type so its kinda short.. xD

yesterday hanged out with abby.. neilson.. bryan nick.. ryan.. brandon.. dawn n shuway..
met up at the arcade in 1u..
ate sushi for lunch.. craving for wasabe.. T.T
then me brandon, dawn, bryan, shuway, and to peeps who just joined us which i dont know the name.. went to catch a movie.. watch Fast & Furious.. it was okay.. 5/10
met jerome there.. then went dawns house.. hanged out there..
waited for brandons dad to send me home.. n went back.. thats what i did yesterday.. (:
it was kinda cool..

well thats my update..
write someother time.. (:

ciao..