i love you grampa..

Just had a bad news yesterday.. my grandad has Meningitis..
and hes in bad condition.. well.. i dont really know what to apart from praying..

i dont really know him that well too.. its like the last time i saw him was when i was nice or ten..
and the last time i saw him wasnt a beautiful sight.. u know why.. family probs.. ):
but i still love my gramps.. even though what happen years ago..

well.. i dont know when will i see you again.. but i just hope you'll be safe n healthy.. dont want you to leave now.. you'll always be in my prayers grampa..
love you for all the things you have tought me..
what youve bought for me.. the moments you spend with me..
ill remember all those memories forever.. i love u gramps..
just dont leave your family behind yet..
dont leave grandma alone.. she still needs you.. she needs your love and care..
she still needs you by her side when she need to talk to someone..


hope youll be safe and healthy always..
youll always be in my heart..

love, your grandchild

Hard times of life when family comes together..

sup peeps.. havent update in a long time..

well.. my lifes not been pretty great so far..
theres up and downs..

my brother just came like 2 weeks ago..
and you all know how big bros are right..
pain in the ass.. yea..

well.. since he came.. my dad changed alot..
its like he sudenly became good.. in a bad way that is..
and hes like blaming me for things i didnt do..
and he took away my room.. n my stuff..
and made me sleep with my younger bro..
and my lil bro has been learning lots of bad stuff from my big bro..

since my bro came.. me and my dad has not been in good terms..
coz he thinks i tought my lil bro most of the bad stuff..

bad thing is my drums been moved out.. my guitars been moved out.. i dont even have a decent place to study.. and worst thing is.. ARGUED WITH MY DAD ALOT..
cant wait for my bro to stay in campus.. its better for him there..

15th May

anyways.. had chapel yesterday.. and the preacher preached bout prayer.. not only adults can pray for people.. young kids can move mountains too.. then he called up for anyone who need prayer.. well.. i felt convicted so i went up.. coz the day before that.. had a conversation with my dad.. and he wants me to forgive him.. i didnt know what to do.. so i prayed but i cant forgive my dad that easily..

then when the preacher prayed for me.. i could forgive my dad easily.. well thanks to the grace of God.. so now i hope that my relationship with my dad will get better.. gotta keep praying everyday now.. (:

well.. thats pretty much about it.. simple update..

GRC leadership camp is coming up soon.. cant wait..
heard lotsa freaky stuff happened last year.. so realy looking forward to going on this camp.. (:

oo ya.. HAPPY TEACHERS DAY..
happy teachers day to all the supervisors in GRC.. have a great day..

cheers..

have i just woken up from a dream..?

havent update in a long while..

dont really have much time to online now..

and had a pretty rough week so far..

well.. this post is gonna go out for someone out there..

just to let you know.. i cant wait any longer..

i keep having doubts on certain things..

i still do miss you.. i still love you..

but.. its time to let go..

im sorry..

its like ive just woke up from a fairy tale dream..

so beautiful and happy moments..

all the memories.. the joy we shared..

but now its all gone..

disappeared right before my eyes..

i still remember when you were there beside me..

now all thats left for me is a reminiscence of time..

its hard to say this but.. ive lost my feelings..

and ive got to move on..

its okay if you dont reply my msg..

or answer my call.. i dont mind..

and my last msg.. was my last goodnight..

goodbye..

David Archuleta's Barriers is kinda like wat goes around my situation now..

the words just sinks in to me..

Well, I don't know how to say this right
And the words got me chokin'
I keep hittin' this wall
It's never gonna fall
And we're still broken
This mountain we've been trying to climb
It's never ending
Just can't do nothing
Gotta do something
'Cause if we don't open up our eyes
We're just pretending

Well, there's a time for givin' up
Didn't want to have to say it
All we doin' is building walls
And now there's too many barriers

Here we are lying here
It's our last final goodnight
Just because it feels so good
No use pretending we're alright
Too many locks, too many crimes
Too many tears, too many lies
Too many barriers

Just too many barriers
That we keep running into
Been tryin', but we just can't break through
I know I'm gonna keep wishing I was with you
But we just gotta stop